I found this in an alley.

Then I got some great fabric with the easter money my Mum sent the girls. It's called "Swinger Lollipop". Add the buttons from the original hamper in a different place and the ribbons from Auntie Angee's craft box and ....

An unabashed celebration of my kids, and the adventures of motherhood.




It is my tremendous privilege to speak to you today as someone who served with Renee at Youth With A Mission Vancouver.
Youth With A Mission, or YWAM, as we call it, is an international, interdenominational Christian missions organization, but for those of us who call ourselves “YWAM-ers”, it is much, much more than an organization. For many, it becomes our family, our tribe. Renee was family to us, and to many others.
I often say the very best and the very worst thing about YWAM is that you come together and build the some of the most amazing, deep friendships you have ever know, and then, because we’re missionaries, you say goodbye again and again as your friends go all over the world, being missionaries. The hope that we hang on to is that we always seem to see each other again in the most unexpected places, in fact, today is a unexpected, sad, and yet joyous reunion for the YWAM family that is here. We are all too used to goodbyes, but none of us was prepared to say goodbye to Renee in this life yet.
What is difficult is that many of those who love Renee, who served with her in YWAM, are indeed all over the world, grieving without a gathering like this to help them through, and I bear the privilege of speaking for them today a great honour, in the hope that they would know they don't grieve alone. Some of you may have seen the front page of the Winnipeg Free Press yesterday with Renee's picture on the cover. The headline read "Family's Grief Shared By World". I'm afraid they don't know the half of it.
Renee joined Youth With A Mission straight after high school, coming to Vancouver to participate in Discipleship Training School, a five month course the exposes and educates people about Christian missions. One of her leaders during that school, Rhonda Navoy Hunter, has reflected how we saw Renee grow form a girl to a woman in the time she was with us. Rhonda loved her quiet strength , and how selfless and thoughtful Renee was. She remarked on how fearless and willing she was to step out in obedience to God remembering how Renee shared the duty of preaching a sermon on outreach in asia, and how the pastor of the church was amazed at the confidence of this young girl to preach.
Our YWAM Vancouver Director, Mike Davies, and his wife Jennifer sent a message for you today:
“On behalf of Youth With A Mission Vancouver we would like to express our heartfelt sadness to the Dueck family and all that knew Renee, at the loss of this vibrant young woman.
We were honoured to have Renee with us in Vancouver as a co-worker, friend and for Jennifer and I, a house mate. She was an amazing help to us when our third child Rebecca came into the world.
Renee had a way of making all of our staff, old and new feel welcomed and of great worth, no matter what their experience or age. She was a very gifted young lady who touched the lives of many here in Vancouver, as I know she did wherever she travelled. She wrote and directed an amazing Easter production, "My Beloved" which was presented by our Staff which was designed to reach out to our local community. Her heart for the lost was evident and an inspiration to all of us.
She will be sorely missed by us all.
MIke and Jennifer Davies”
The play that Mike mentioned, “My Beloved”, has a special meaning to me personally, for I was asked to play the lead in the play, and role of Mary Magdalene. RenĂ©e's writing in that play changed my life. As I played the role that Renee had written, I felt like the bible story she interpreted was happening to me, in all it’s rawness, and vulnerability and joy. I have never seen Easter morning the same way since. I knew what Renee believed, because it was in her writing, in her work. She believed with all her heart that life was hard, and that at times it was excruciating. And she believed that Jesus was real, worth living for and worth dying for. And she believed, as she wrote in the play, that He was no ordinary man, but her King. I know her presence with Him now is her joy and her reward, and that the comfort that is available to each of us, through her precious Jesus, is real too. Renee would never have offered this hope as a platitude, or a band aid to anyone, but as a very real accessible help that she had experienced personally.
Renee’s friend Audrey from Texas wrote to say that Renee was probably one of the coolest people she had ever met. She said: “Renee knew who she was and followed through. She was creative and not afraid to try new things...i remember when she started to wear ties as belts...soon everyone was doing it.”
Several friends, Audrey, Lisa & Ben included, remember her great cooking - how much she loved to eat. Hannah wrote to say tat Renee was the first person who ever taught her how to stir fry anything without having it stick to the bottom of the pan! Audrey remembered she asked Renee once how she learned to cook an Renee just looked t her like “Duh! I just made it up! how she loved to take photos and how she loved, loved Vancouver and eating all the food you could get on Commercial Drive, our neighbourhood.
Renee was someone who brought joy to our YWAM family, she laughed a lot and was pretty funny herself. Ben is sure she is telling jokes to Jesus right about now. Her laugh was contagious. I loved it when she come and put her arm around me whenever she spoke to me, and she would always smile and laugh. She helped us make some really funny videos too, that we used as teaching tools for the youth in our programs, I’ve learned from her siblings that this is something Renee was doing long before she ever came to YWAM, her first one was when she was 11, that she and Justin wrote, starring Alayna and Kara too - so apparently lighting leprechauns on fire and ninjas leaping out of trees was not such a stretch for her.
Renee longed to motivate people to discover and follow their passions - to do something - anything, but especially if it had meaning, proclaimed truth and justice. Emily wrote from California and spoke for many when she said Renee was a very passionate person. She said: ”When I think of Renee the first thing that comes to my mind is picturing her during prayer times. She was a very passionate intercessor. When she prayed she prayed with faith and hope that what she was asking for would come about. Renee never left anyone out, she was kind to everyone and all were welcome when she was around. Renee was a fighter, when obstacles came up, she met them head on. She fought her way to go on outreach to Jordan, writing the play for Easter, and getting people together for creative projects on the Wave. She was constant, and loved the Lord, and will be greatly missed. I know she really made a difference in every life she knew, and I have a hard time thinking she's gone.”
It was on the Wave USA tour, a tour to challenge people to rise up to their passions and the call of God on their lives, that Renee was diagnosed with cancer the first time. On that tour was her friend Jacqui. Jacqui has been on a YWAM outreach in Asai, and returned to discver rnee had passed away. Her shock was immense, but she wrote to say: “. but when i think about it, being in the middle of my life with YWAM half way across the world is exactly what renee would be expecting me to do. it seems a little cheesy, but really ren loved the kingdom of God in all it's forms - especially expressed through nations, culture and people. that's what her faith was all about, and it inspires me to keep on going as a missionary because of her tenacious passion for these things. many of my greatest moments in missions have included renee. i remember being with her when she had the cambodian word for hope tatooed on her ankle - when i think about her and my future as i try to live out my faith i would aim to carry on the hope she had in every language to every person i meet.”
It was on the Wave USA tour that Renee was diagnosed with cancer. Her official work with YWAM ended after that, but when she returned to Vancouver to attend college, we were so blessed to have her with us again. We were a part of the same church as well, and it has been my joy to have Renee celebrate the births of both our girls with Wade and I. I remeber the care she took to choose a little blue lamb for our daughter Sophia, n we have a picture of Sophia after her baby shower, asleep on her dad's chest, wearing the little shawl Lindsey made, with the blanket that Leanne made, and the little blue lamb perched right on top.
I want to close this time with a video that was sent to us by Leigh and Angela Oliver, who now live in Australia. Leigh was on the same YWAM training school as Renee, and they were dear friends. It was to Angela and Leigh’s apartment that Renee and Monique first went in Vancouver. Angela was Renee’s leader when she was on staff, and was key in drawing out Renee’s gifts and passions. The Dueck family told us yesterday that Renee was very quiet about her gift of writing and they had guessed, but never knew how gifted she was in this area. Angela commissioned and coaxed writing from Renee that are treasures to us now, constantly encouraging her, even when times were really rough for her in YWAM. Angela is the one I wish were here today to tell you in person about Renee, to lead you in worship, but she was obedient to do what she understood God told her to do, and she is not, so I stand on her shoulders (which is funny to those of you who know exactly how tall Angela is) and present this on Angela and Leigh’s behalf. In this video, it is Angela who introduces Renee, so I suppose technology provides across the miles.
Angela described this video as as a reminder of how Renee “SOoo wanted people to LIVE”. LIVE of course, is a capital, L-I-V-E. Leigh edited this video together for us to see. It is of Angela, Leigh, Audrey, Hannah, Deb and of course Renee, at her dear friend Jacqui’s church in Salt Lake City. In the video you will hear Renee introduce herself and explain the passion of her heart. She then will share a short testimony but what her YWAM training school meant to her, and then the group presents a piece that Renee wrote which she called a “readers’ theatre.” This piece was originally written by Renee for the North American leader’s conference in 2003, and was then performed by several YWAM teams. Over the last few days, several of Renee’s friends from around the world have written to say it is the piece that stayed with them over the years.
I would like to present to you, with the blessing and joy and deep ache of her Youth With A Mission family, now appearing only in heaven for the glory of her Heavenly Father, the lovely Renee Dueck.

Now, how can you resist this face?
Me wearing my new shirt with my unbelievable birthday dessert. Yes, that is chocolate cheese cake AND espresso gelle and a really fancy doughnut. And yes, that does say "Happy Birthday Joanna" in chocolate calligraphy. And I am more than a little giddy. As you can tell.Eleanor's b-day was also really great. On her actual birthday, the 12th, I had a banana bread in the freezer that Angee had baked before they left for Australia, so Angela actually managed to bake Sophia's cake AND Eleanor's cake this year - from across he world. Yes, she is that good.



By the way, when people tell me that Sophia and I look alike, I honestly don't really see it, because she doesn't really look like I did when I was little. But in this picture above, I get it, I really get it!




I'm so happy!!!! Shout out to the brown boxes Angela gave me..


When Sandra took this picture, our beautiful Eleanor was only a few minutes old. We had her at home and called excited godparents Ange and Leigh to come right over. When they got there, we said, "It's a girl, and if it's alright with you, we'd like to call her Angela Eleanor Joie."
My Dad, Bob at Sophia's 3rd birthday. One of the only photos in existence of him really smiling.
My auntie Gill, my godmother, my friend.
At our 10th wedding anniversary, Kits Beach. We're praying. Or taking a quick nap.
Me and my sister Angela. Sometimes people get us mixed up.
The last time we did this and people banged their glasses for us to kiss, it seemed our hands were more free...
Sophia and my brother (although she insists he is HER brother) Matt.
Out for sushi at the eatery on Leigh's birthday.
Sophia sleeping at "Joie", my cousin Michael's farm and winery.
I know this one was on a recent blog, but it is really a fave....
Christmas Eve. Our girls. (How did we get two - 2! - kids - who are so big and great and funny?) Amazing.


1) My new boots that allow me to dry and stylish while wheeling the babes about the 'hood.
We're not sure who had more fun, the butterfly or the sun.
This is Ben. He is my friend and (after a misunderstanding during a Christmas shopping trip years ago) my little brother. He flies planes in Australia and I miss him so much I just don't think about it most days.